Every choice has its consequences, good and bad. There are always the two sides, so did my choice. My choice was a very difficult one to make but it was inevitable. With a very heavy heart I chose to make the decision.
Its such a difficult decision, as a teacher my students aren’t just a group of children I interact with, they are little pieces of my heart. Each one has a special place and can never be replaced. Realization dawned upon me this morning, that I will no more see my children.
I will no more be greeted with little legs running to hug me, I will no more have my little bundles of joy whom I hug and kiss good morning every day. I will not spend my day around my precious souls anymore.
I will not have Noah pulling my hair or Theia and Siddhant fighting to sit on my lap. I will not have Indu running about in circles around me. I will not have Anaira giving me the sweetest smiles. No more playing peek-a-boo with Luke and Ellora, No more gibberish talks with Aira and Mishka. No more Riaan and Aryaveer coming and complaining. Its all gone on a flash !
The love that I have for them and that they show for me is priceless and inexpressible !
It brings tears to my eyes to imagine what my days will be like without my heartbeats ! Its just been a day and I am already missing them so much. I wish I could hug each one of them again and tell them how much I love them. I wish I could be with them forever! To all my little babies, No matter where I go, no matter how long it may have been .. each one of you will be dearly missed and will always hold a special place in my heart !
I hope someday when they will be old enough to understand, they would read this and know how much I loved them.
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